Esto Perpetua (Latin: Let it be forever)

Saturday, September 4, 2010

An Inestimable Blessing and Bother

If one feels the need of something grand, something infinite, something that makes one feel aware of God, one need not go far to find it. I think that I see something deeper, more infinite, more eternal than the ocean in the expression of the eyes of a little baby when it wakes in the morning and coos or laughs because it sees the sun shining on its cradle.
Vincent Van Gogh

A baby is an inestimable blessing and bother.
Mark Twain

So Dallas and I learned yesterday that we are *exactly 10 weeks along. It's amazing what is happening and you don't really know. It really stinks to be pregnant. I'd always wanted to be the cute little pregnant girl with perfect glowy clear skin and the tiny little belly that was only apparent from the side. Of course I knew these were high and very lofty goals reserved for the select few but a girl can dream right? Anyhow the ridiculousness that is morning sickness besieges me morning afternoon and evening so I really don't get why they call it morning sickness. I've only thrown up twice but I seem to feel nauseous all the time and that is something I've always hated with a passion. To top it off my clothes are getting pretty uncomfortable only around the waist and I'm freaking out about the fact that 7mo from now I'll be in agony getting the baby out and into the world. Then came yesterday. For about twenty minutes Dallas and I were watching our little miracle floating and swimming and kicking inside *MY stomach. It was surreal, I almost expected there to not be anything on the monitor but there Baby was. The look on Dallas's face was beyond words, he was so happy, excited, and proud all rolled into one nervous man. As I lay there holding his hand and watching that screen the loss of my lucky charm breakfast not even two hours prior faded away and the nausea disappeared. I was no longer nervous but rather felt happier than, well, prolly since the day I became Mrs. Amber Keever. It's such a terrifying prospect to me. That we will have the responsibility of raising a baby that will one day be a real person like us. The possibilities are endless for how a person can turn out. I know God brought me the perfect and only man for me and gave us this baby, he obviously trusts us to do whats right and raise this child for his honor and glory. I just pray we can raise a child worthy of Him. I know I really don't have too much to worry about because I have the Lord and His word to help guide me through the tough times, and a husband who couldn't be happier or more eager to please and ready to grow a child :) Dallas is so happy he doesn't even care if it's a boy or girl. I think he's secretly hoping for a little girl like me, but either way we're so elated to be having a baby no matter what the sex is. Anyways, I'll be posting again after the next appointment which is who knows when. They still need to call to schedule my next one. Super annoying! Until then I love you all and hope you're all doing well. Please keep us in your prayers :)

If nature had arranged that husbands and wives should have children alternatively, there would never be more than three in a family.
Lawrence Housman


  1. o girl! bless your heart! i just laughed and laughed reading your post and your new "about me". we are praying for you and excited to see how God helps you thru this stage in your life. i just love every little crazy bit of you and can't wait til i get over there to hug you to pieces! :)

  2. It has been a blessing for me being your mom, the mom of five girls, and now the excitement and anticipation, of being a Nana again, the joy of experiencing this through your eyes, is more of a blessing than I could have ever dreamed. That run-on sentence could literally go on for ever! I'm so happy for you and D! I laughed and, of course, cried tears of joy reading this post. It just blesses my heart to see my girls enjoying the blessings of becoming moms. I'm so thankful, also, that the Lord has blessed me with sons-in-law that love the Lord, my daughters and are in love with their children. Thank you Lord! I love you all three! Love M♥M

  3. you are going to be a great mom Amber!Maybe someday I'll see you again,and meet your little one:)