"For the majority of us, the past is a regret, the future an experiment."
"The past is behind, learn from it. The future is ahead, prepare for it. The present is here, live for it."
Have you ever had someone reveal something to you that you really wish they hadn't? Well, that very thing happened to me Sunday. It wasn't anything earth shattering or something like that but, it was definitely disappointing. It made me want to shake the person and say "WHAT were you thinking!? Please let me into that brain and help me to understand!!" but instead I rolled my eyes and asked "What!?". The person knew this would be my reaction apparently as they hung their head and put their hands to their cheeks as they told me. I seriously don't get people sometimes. No particular age group in particular, just people in general. I don't understand the thought processes that they go through before they arrive at a conclusion. It's always been a desire to understand why people do and think what they do and to know the intimate details of why they thought they should do things a certain way. It made me think of my own similar youthful indiscretions. Fortunately mine were different circumstances and I lived in a good family so I didn't suffer the same fate I fear is coming for the person I shall call "Shannon" for conversations sake. I fear she is going to end up ruining her life and not even realize it. I'm so thankful that God spared me from what could have been very very bad decisions in my life. I'm so thankful that I was spared from making what seemed like minute decisions at the time but in retrospect could have tainted the rest of my life. I know for a fact I am living an amazing God blessed life thanks to the diligence of my parents and Godly influences. I'm so thankful that I was taught my own worth and even though I didn't feel that way a lot of the time I knew in my heart that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. That I deserved a lot better than what I was being given. I am so thankful that I don't have anything that I have to look back on with too much regret. I hope that Shannon will understand these things too and I can be a Godly influence on her, but, I see a headstrong young girl who already has her mind made up about what she's going to do. I won't give up on her though. Because nothing is final until God says it's over. So please keep "Shannon" in your prayers. Other than that Char's been acting like she's trying to teethe and being super cranky and ultra sleepy, so, who knows! Just keep praying for me and the situation. It's weird but I want to be used if God wants to use me.
"We cannot let our past cloud our perception of the future."